From The Ground Up
Deep in the depths of the earth no light nor air, without hope and full of despair. Feeling like Jonah did when he was in the belly of a fish. Looking at daylight but never seeing the Son. Fake smiles and laughter forged from a weary soul,
filled with a heart covered with deadly mold (SIN). Not knowing who or whose I am. Without fulfillment in what I see every time I look at myself. Changed locations but still the same because my heart was never changed. I was far away from who was good and pure; not realizing what He had endured. Underneath the ground stuck in the mud full of hopelessness I'm feeling like crud. Crying inside but who would see the agony I would not show. Like the Samaritan woman, no clarity in life, walking around being looked at with contempt and strife. So tired of me, so tired to be.
So, I finally called out to the one who said come unto me all you that are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest.
The Good Shepherd spoke to me, He saw my heart, I had to confess all my mess.
I began to be washed inside out by His blood without a doubt. Eyes now wide opened seeing clear my Savior, my God was ever so near. Now I know who I am, a child of God, looking and feeling her best. Confident in God because of His great love towards me.
First Lady, S. Proctor
Scriptures Ephesians 2:4-10, II Corinthians 5:17
God Is Not A Man That He Should Lie
God care about us even when we don’t think He does, His interest in us never fades. When others
forget about you God does not. Just like Sarah when she was barren, her desire was to bare a child.
Many of her young years passed where she could not conceive. But God did promise her and Abraham
that they would be blessed with a son. She heard the Lord’s promise and the timeline He gave.
Sarah got to a point where she became impatient deciding to take matters in her own hands. Just like
we do sometimes when we think much time has passed without any results. She decided to hand her
husband Abraham another woman. How difficult that decision had to have been for her. Desperate,
she had truly become in making such a decision that would later haunt her. Sometimes, we do forget
the promises God makes when we stop walking by faith and start walking by sight. There will be times
in our lives when we don’t like what we see, hear, smell or taste. These are times when we must fight
the good fight of faith and know that God is still on His throne, hears our prayers and that He is not a
man that He should lie. Numbers 23:19
In the Book of Genesis chapter 18 verses 9 through 14 we see God promised Abraham and Sarah they
would have a son. We must believe God when it seems that all odds are against us. God came through
for Sarah in her later years when it was not possible for her to even be fertile, nor for Abraham to be her
delight. But, as the scripture says, Is anything impossible for the Lord? Genesis 18:14. Absolutely, NOT.
Today, we read about the promised son Isaac who was born to Abraham and Sarah in Genesis chapter
21 verses 1 through 6. This child brought joy and hope to both parents. What wonderful results we can
get in trusting God and His promises.
God does not need to remember His promises to us because He doesn’t forget them, we do. Let us ask
the Holy Spirit to bring all the promises we’ve read in God’s word to our remembrance. Let us also put
an effort forth to write them down to be memorized. Let us allow ourselves to become established in
God’s word so that we do not give up. Know our Heavenly Father will not fail us, He will come through
for you as He did Sarah. Let us hold on to the confession of our hope without wavering, since He who
promised is faithful. Hebrews 10:23
May The Lord Himself Richly Bless You,
First Lady Stephena Proctor